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Monday Morning

My motto…

Everything happens for a reason.

You won’t be able to recognize it when you’re in the midst of turmoil but when it’s time for your lesson to be revealed you will gain that perspective.

Trust and believe you have the power and resolve to make it through and you most definitely will emerge victorious!

It has just barely crossed over that midnight threshold into what will soon become Monday morning and I still can’t seem to fall asleep. All I keep thinking about is how it is two full weeks into the New Year and I have yet to post an update.  Then I sign in and A) get disgusted at the fact that I haven’t posted since July, and B) can’t seem to figure out why (as per WordPress) my “stats are booming”. It amazes me that people are continuing to read my blog even without regular updates. I am humbled by it and extremely grateful, yet saddened by the truth of the matter that… you read because you can relate.

I hope to start posting a little more regularly, if I can reign in my concentration with staying focused on work and only work during work hours. Did I mention…work. Yeah, it kills most of the hours in my day. But I will try hard to get here on the weekend and make some time to post little tidbits and updates.

If you are wondering what has been going on….

Just imagine me as Julie Andrews twirling around on a grassy mountain singing about the hills being alive with the sound of music. Etc.

Yes, I’m twirling.

Happy 2018!


Off The Cuff


As much as I knew I would be here…today, the thoughts of what I want to say and need to say are jumping around like the bubbles in last night’s champagne.  So, in keeping it simple, I’ll just say…Happy New Year!  It’s the long awaited and eagerly anticipated 2017.

I haven’t been here in so long, not for any horrifying or unsettling reasons.  More so for a necessary mental respite from spewing the facts of my life.  As much as it was good for my soul and my growth, it also felt like it became an overwhelming (self inflicted) responsibility.  One I was semi prepared for yet not close to ready to take on.

Aside from the basics of my story, those specific details which have been dormant for a long time, there were a slew of other things – detached from the topic – that were going on simultaneously.  I needed to concentrate on those things without feeling guilty for not being present, with you.

Now that everything else I was dealing with is under control, I feel like I can come back and start teething again on this blog.  For those here that I got to know well, rest assured I’m safe.  It’s only day one of 2017, but I’m looking at it’s entirety in the palm of my hand and I’m bursting with excitement.

Health & Happiness to all of you this year and always.


Just Rambling

As I sit here, with a butt load of work, my mind keeps trailing off. Thinking about this and that.  A little of everything and nothing in general.  My life, my path, my accomplishments, my good days and bad days, my writing, my blog, my poetry, the silly things that make me smile and the handful of people in my life that I love unconditionally.  Just a few moments (or an hour) of reflection.  I’m not really sure what brought it on.  Or why I decided to come here and write about it.  Something in me just said — say it out loud.

I spent a few minutes rereading some of my last few posts.  Some of it made me laugh because I wondered what people thought about some of the poetry I’ve written – the lovey dovey stuff.  When you come to this blog, and see the title of it, the last thing anyone expects to see is a sappy love poem.  So I should just say now…NONE of those are for my abuser. Lol. The thought of anyone even thinking that (eww) makes me nauseous.

Since I started writing poetry as a teenager, and throughout my life, I’ve only been able to write what is happening to me.  Whether happy or sad, it’s always been an emotional journey.  Literally, my life on paper (or a screen).  As I read other people’s poetry, I often wonder if they are writing about something in their own lives or if they are one that can just write beautiful words that go together in such a way it strikes a chord with anyone who reads it.

I’d think – for poetry especially – there has to be some thread that ties it to the writer’s life, thoughts, feelings.  Even fiction writers, in my opinion, probably start with some small seed of truth and spin from that.  For me, I have the two extremes to pull from.  If you’ve read my blog since it’s inception, you’d know I’ve somehow managed to live a double life.  Love on one side … marriage on the other.  So at least it helps to give whatever I write a little…texture.  There’s the good and the evil, the happy and the sad…the occasional sap and the (very) borderline erotica.  What can I say, it’s who I am.  😉

Anyway, that’s all I have to say, which was basically nothing.  I’m glad to be part of this WordPress community and at least have somewhere nice go when my mind wanders.  Thanks for taking the trip with me and guiding me through your own adventures.

Back to work for me.  Enjoy your day.

Something About You

New #MadVerse for 2/10 no.236
Issued by: Lady of the Storms on Twitter
Prompt: “between ecstasy and damnation”

Something About You

Something About You

Disclaimer: Have no fear, this poem is not about my abuser.

You can read more of my micropoetry here.

Check out some of my picture poetry on Pinterest.